I guess saying farewell is never easy. But i have said mine, which is only half of a goodye. Long distance relationships are difficult.





Farewell
Fate brought us together
Fate also tore us apart
Before a geological barrier settled in between
We were as tight as buckles
We were invincible
We trusted each other completely
& most importantly
We loved each other so much
We thought that our love could over come all obstacles
But fate decided to turn it's back on us
I was never there when you needed me
She was there when u needed someone
I didn't give you the care and understanding you required
She was there to fill in those blanks
She stayed beside you & held you through your worst moments
The things i should have done...
I thought you were strong enough...
But now i know you're frail..
I've failed you as a girlfriend and a fiance
I've haven't tried my best to spend sufficient time with you
Neither have i given you the shoulder you needed
I was never there
& i deserve this ending...
Now...
Looking at my bowl of Korean noodles with a single egg with a perfect yolk makes tears swell in the corner of my eyes..
Leather pouches, bags and hand crafts were bought but never given...
Black letters and white pens... Black earrings...
Monkies & FroGGies brings backs so much memories
That are so hard to just sweep aside
Hearing that you're sick makes my heart ache
Hearing that you're sad makes me even sadder...
The worst is to know that you still care...
And i know you still love me ...
But we are just not possible...
At least not now...
So much pain and sorrow I've brought you
I just want to say I'm sorry
I didn't cherish you enough
& I'm glad you've found her
You told me that you'll learn to forget me
Can i say don't go?
I told you a lie & i know you can tell
But i can't lie about one thing
& that is i still love you
But seeing you happy is more than enough
At least now there's someone to cherish you more than i
At least now I'm being punished for my selfishness
At least now you can have the simple life you've longed for
And i meant it with all my heart when i said that I'm happy for you
Now...
I'll just have to learn to let you go
Slowly I'll learn to be me again
If fate really meant for us to be together
We'll meet again sometime in our lives
Maybe than we'll have a happy ending
Maybe than i can complete your lose bits again
You were the greatest gf one could hope for
At least to me you were...
& i never regretted being with you
Thanks for every single thing you have done for me
Thanks for all the happy memories
I'll carry them in my heart forever
And my doors are always open for you
& you know it...
I'll learn from these mistakes
& if there's one chance
I'll take it...
Just one word from you is all i need
My final goodbyes to you Jia Jia
Yours Only,
Kha Kha
(20th March 05-30th October 06)
p.s(Sometimes Love just ain't enough...)